The Trip

3/4/14
New York is a city full of people looking for a rush. Everyone has that one thing, whether it is drugs, girls, running, reading, work, etc. I never in a hundred years thought that I would go to New York, even to check it out. Well it happened, and well I wasn't impressed, except for the subways systems. That shit is rad. $2.75 to ride from Astoria Queens to The World Trade Memorial. Cheap transport makes for a bustling economy. It may take some initial spending to get that transport into place, but after the years it will create opportunity unavailable to the old American way of being reliant on personal transportation.

Anyway, if you are a New Yorker this isn't meant to offend you and if it does, go fuck yourself. I have lived in California for half of my life and I am west coast through and through so that is why I didn't like New York. We all have preferences. 

I did meet a pretty bad ass server, she was nice, and we chatted about life and connected. She was of Asian decent, I would lean more towards Chinese or Korean. I should have gotten her number. I don't think sometimes.

All and all this trip has been mighty, wicked awesome. It has been damned cold though. I never imagined myself being in negative weather or just cruising the streets on foot in 18 degree weather. Someone is smart over here. Anyway, It was a learning experience throughout this two weeks and I must say I learned more about survival in this past week than I have, probably in my whole life.

Love who you are, be who you are, and live the life that makes you happy. Words I am starting to truly live by.

Thomas

Negative fourteen degrees

2/28/14
We have all got to do something outside our comfort zones every once in awhile. I haven't even done anything new in about 5 years. I mean yea, I drove to San Diego, I drove to Chicago. Those were all done with a companion. I had somewhere to be at the other side of those trips. This time I am totally solo, and just going. I have been learning about a new culture and lifestyle. Big city living where there are more than six million different people to see, hear, smell. Even though it is so cold you cannot smell a damned thing.

I know I do not work for Commune anymore but I feel like this would have been a pretty cool way to market, do research, or experience cities that that company would like to expand into. Portland should be the next place that they put a new destination hotel. I am sure they are years in front of me, in expansion terms, but I am here doing it. I am expanding my personal knowledge of what is going on in these big cities that are destination locations.

I have already been looking into new trips to do in the future. Russia, Brazil, Italy. I am now in a time of my life where even though I am a homebody and I love my family I want to experience the nuances that come with traveling to a place undiscovered by yourself. Every single place that I will go, whether it be alone or with a companion I will see and understand what is going on around me at all times. I must give up the drinking practices that I have gotten into over the past six years.

I have been an alcoholic like my family in Wisconsin. Almost, their drinking habits are wild. Also, the food that they eat in that part of the country is not exactly what I would call nourishing. I can understand that they do not have the same fresh produce as we have on the west coast of the United States, but my goodness. Cheese, and pickled food. Also, bar food: burgers, hot dogs, fried cheese, chicken wings. I had trouble surviving on the diet that they offered to me, but like I was saying before, new experiences and nuances for each place traveled. It is part of the business.

I must say, I do not know what the fuck I am doing here but I am doing it. I have money and I have drive that cannot be matched by other people that I am always around. This writing is not really metaphysical or a fiction, it is my own thoughts flowing through my fingertips. Live it. Even in this damned cold.

Operations management

4/20/12
This class has become a joke. The reasons I don't come to class include the following reasons:
1) The people are very much loud, specifically mikaella.
2) Sharon has not figured out how to control classes.
3) The material is not organized in a way that conveys meaning or understanding.
4) Annoying.

Oh well

11/10/14
I read back through my blog entries probably once every 6 months or so. I like to see where my mind was at that given time in the year. I never really realized that this was going to become more of journal entries than a blog. Now that I look back on some of this shit I finally realize, it was fucking 4/20! No wonder I was so annoyed, everyone was fucking stoned. I think even Sharon was high. I just don't think sometimes.

December

12/18/11
It is amazing the changes in mood you experience over a given day.

I worked from 8 30 AM until 5 PM, and during that time I had a blast and it was truly fun and fulfilling.
As soon as I returned home, everything changed and the mood was negative and not very fun anymore. It was obligations, having to come back to this place, having to see the same people.

I love my family, this is not the debate. I just cannot stand them.
This may be due to uncertainty about a special date in my head.

All I know is that from December 23 until January 1, I will be working. Everyday, and the odd part about this is the excitement I feel to work, not Christmas or New Years. This could be due to the fact that I want to be around these people. They have latched on to me and are accepting. They LISTEN and RESPOND.

That is all I have ever asked, of anyone really...
I guess we choose the people we want to be around, even if it does not include our family.

David (Uncle) calls his mother (Grandmother) everyday. I hate to say this but, i am not so sure I will be doing this when I am older.
I want to and love my mother, but she does not allow herself to let anyone be right, or...

11/10/2014
I moved away from home. I work hard in the place I live. I call my mother everyday.
I never realized what was actually going on in my household until it actually happened. I didn't realize that affairs not only hurt the triangle involved, but also the people closely connected to those three people as well. Realization had.

She

You are a cold bitch. I've learned the lesson of going out of your way for people. Not happening anytime soon. You think you know how people are going to act or react and then this pops up. Absolutely fantastic.
I'm off. I've got mine. Go get yours. Because obviously I'm not the one and that's ok with me. Happiness for more than one is better than happiness alone. Live, lie, learn, love. Thats life