Sunday, December 18, 2011

December

12/18/11
It is amazing the changes in mood you experience over a given day.

I worked from 8 30 AM until 5 PM, and during that time I had a blast and it was truly fun and fulfilling.
As soon as I returned home, everything changed and the mood was negative and not very fun anymore. It was obligations, having to come back to this place, having to see the same people.

I love my family, this is not the debate. I just cannot stand them.
This may be due to uncertainty about a special date in my head.

All I know is that from December 23 until January 1, I will be working. Everyday, and the odd part about this is the excitement I feel to work, not Christmas or New Years. This could be due to the fact that I want to be around these people. They have latched on to me and are accepting. They LISTEN and RESPOND.

That is all I have ever asked, of anyone really...
I guess we choose the people we want to be around, even if it does not include our family.

David (Uncle) calls his mother (Grandmother) everyday. I hate to say this but, i am not so sure I will be doing this when I am older.
I want to and love my mother, but she does not allow herself to let anyone be right, or...

11/10/2014
I moved away from home. I work hard in the place I live. I call my mother everyday.
I never realized what was actually going on in my household until it actually happened. I didn't realize that affairs not only hurt the triangle involved, but also the people closely connected to those three people as well. Realization had.