Introspection

It's hard to realize that you are the only person responsible for the demise of the current state of your life. When it sets in and it becomes reality, that is where the difficulty lies.  How did this happen? Why? What is the training behind It? Masochism, I feel is the simplest most directly relating answer. Emotional sabotage. Giving up... now this isn't a plea for help but simply my current state of introspection.

It's funny what familiarity and comfort will do to you. Sometimes it is fantastic, if it is certain to last for the long run. I feel as thogugh I am learning about myself and my flaws. I owe that to none but myself.